Disturbed Sleeping and Distance Learning
I suffer from biphasic sleep,
rather segmented sleep. It is not a disorder but that is the way I sleep. I go
to bed around ten in the night and wake up around 2:00 am to pee. Thereafter for
about two hours or so I toss around before sleeping again till about 6:00 am.
This segmented sleep has almost become a regular pattern. During the so-called
wakeful hours brain keeps thinking about mostly negative, sometimes positive
things. I wallow in self-pity at things I have not finished or my
procrastination, feeling terribly guilty. At times I think of pleasant things
ahead for the day or week and cogitate planning what to do. The only negative
aspect about my sleep is that I am forced to wake up anywhere between 2 to 5
times because of prostate problem.
Sometimes the self-afflicted
mental torture could be so unbearable that I open my laptop and try to catching
up with mail or pending online lessons. Answering assignments or exercises at
the end of lessons is taken up. Whether I complete the task or not, the very attempt
causes drowsiness and I fall asleep. It is easy to fall asleep if I start
reading some book – any book for that matter. Printed page is unfailingly
soporific. Despite all these If I proceed,
I can cover small portions with some difficulty.
A great advantage of trying
to learn something new when you are about to sleep or during segmented sleep
intervals is that if you brush up that portion again in the day time during
regular waking hours, the topic sticks to your mind quickly. I have tested it several times during college
exam days. It works. Why not even now, - at 78 - when I am learning just to
spend time.
At times when I am single (my
daughter may be away on tour etc), I resort to singing in low voice in the
night around 3 am. But the neighbour’s dog feels uncomfortable and starts
barking. So, I have given up learning to
sing at odd hours or ever.